Oct 13, 2015
Today was the day it was supposed to happen. (But it didn't.)
Things were supposed to get going, pick up, take off. (But no.)
I was supposed to do things. (I didn't.)
When I woke up with a To Do list bubbling with the energy of optimism. By the end of the day, it had drooped and wilted. Too much exposure to the sun.
The day I was supposed to go outside and see the light. (But I stayed inside.)
The day when the epiphanies, like the groceries, were failed to be delivered. (They tried calling, but no one picked up the phone and they couldn't find the place and it's your fault.)
Today, I looked back at the last 8 hours. (I shouldn't have.) No one knows what happened to them. (Did they even exist?)
Today was just like yesterday. (Perhaps an identical twin to tomorrow, just born a day earlier.)
Tomorrow may be the scariest day of my life.
Jul 20, 2015
Kaun kehta hai ki aasmaan mein suraakh ho nahin sakta,
ek pathhar toh tabiyat se uchhaalo yaaron.
I had no idea these lines existed.
Can't stop thinking past it. Unabashed optimism and derring-do. Something that I doubt I have ever experienced or used. Can't remember if there was a time where I could have thrown a stone "with conviction".
Sky or not, but it just zipped past my defences.
Now how to make going to read Dushyant Kumar a priority?
Jun 15, 2015
A tourist guide is with a group of visitors at Runnymede, where the Magna Carta was signed. He tells them: "this is where the Magna Carta, or the Great Charter, was signed in 1215.
One visitor looks at his watch and remarks: "Damn, we just missed it by about an hour, then".
Jun 8, 2015
After all, it's your "Autobiography in 23 Chapters" (Flipkart link here).
May 18, 2015
Saw my first ever gorilla, toucan, and polar bear (partial list here). It's also one of the most accessible outdoor spaces I've ever seen, with even an escalator segment that helps you navigate some of the steeper parts of the zoo.
We must have seen about 40-50% of the zoo, given the size of the campus. That's pretty much the most you can do in 4-6 hours, especially with children in tow. Which means you have to choose. With a dazzling array of choices, this act is very difficult. You have this problem at large buffets and bookstores (ok, *I* have this anxiety at bookstores).
People have been studying the problems of abundance - when we can't have it all, it makes us uneasy, for making a choice implies saying no to something else, and thus a potential loss - what if you made the wrong choice?
Sheena Iyengar's book Buy The Art Of Choosing sums this up nicely.
Apr 9, 2015
And how naive, new, and noble we once were! But it's good to know that state of mind, which accompanies anything that you begin from zero, can be rediscovered. Gives you a chance to refresh and scrape off cynicism accumulated in other aspects of life.
"It has been decided to remove access to xyz"
Not "I have decided" or "we have decided", but "it has been". Borderline euphemistic, don't-come-complaining-to-me. Blame the ether.